Socially Awkward

People say they enjoy my company...

People sometimes laugh at my jokes...

People seem to ignore when I say things that are out of line or awkward...

so I wonder, as I've wondered for well over a decade now.

is my awkwardness random, or am I the retarded kid that is "on" the team but only gets to hit the field when the team is so far ahead that me running around like a retard wont hurt the game.

Am I being Humored? because that's how it seems most days.