Worse Panic Attack ever.

Im driving down the road... 161 to be exact. the current speed limit is 55 miles an hour.

we are coming up on the first light past 270. its only Luke and I in the Car.

a Pick up truck trys to turn in front of us and catches himself before he T-bones me.

this is were the panic attack/day terror start. in my mind in REAL TIME he hits me. the back of my door and all of Lukes.

Im pinned. I cant turn around to check on luke and I hear nothing but a ring in my ear caused by his jammed Horn. I slide the phone out of my pocket with my right hand, the only part of me that can move.

I call 911 and its more complex then I remember 911 as being. it doesnt help that I can only faintly hear the person on the other end cause I cant get the phone to my ear.

it takes minutes for help to get there. I still cant hear luke all I hear is a horn and people chattering outside the car. they cant get to us.

more minutes pass, I hear sirens now. I hear metal scrapping ground and I feel as if the weight is being pulled away from my side. things are broken but I will live. I hear more crunching metal and then I hear my baby scream. and then he is quiet again.

im finally able to turn around and all im going to say is at this point I wish I hadnt.

in this day terror he doesnt make it.

Im getting worse.