oh no...

All the Bills are paid, all the kids are fed dressed and happy, Im not Feeling Pain, Ive got a Car that runs parked outside my back door, Ive got a wife that loves me, and girlfriends she doesn't know about(Kidding), I'm not in Pain, I'm not Dizzy, I'm not Exhausted for no Reason, and I'm losing weight...

I'm Catching myself doing little trivial things I wouldn't have done weeks ago... like deviating from the norm when ordering food(I go to Chipotla, my order is the same EVERYTIME). Yesterday at Frisch's:"Honey, why did I order Onion rings? I NEVER order onion rings...". may seem trivial but its a big deal to me. I'm still having Panic attacks and Day Terrors but the rest of me seems to be falling into place.

and the big one(IMHO). my Friend April asked me how I was. I always answer with something Cynical like "I'm Alive, Meh, you don't wanna know, etc..." this last time my answer was "Awesome" I didn't notice the change but she sure did.... 10 years of responding in a depressed manner and this last time it was "Awesome"... trivial but Big.

Kids, I think I may be Happy.

May 1st 2011

"How do you prove to a religious zealot that his god isn't real? you kill him, but be prepared... in turn you will have cemented into the minds of all his peers that we are in fact the devil he told them we were..."- Wm "P" Marrs

since I was sick...

its been a few weeks since I was deathly ill... since then I have had no interest in games of any kind.


If this means Ive grown up I'm going to be very pissed off... hopefully its just a phase.

Typhoid fever with bronchitis forthelose

Working out the kinks in posting mobile

Im Painy

but still alive.