I got a lot of advice...

"the only safe option is for me to just suffer..."

"good, I'm glad they talked some sense into you."

no matter what...

I will be wrong.

that is a start I guess.

I finally got to say good bye.

on the 22nd of July I Finally got the nerve to go and say good bye to My grandma... it felt like the whole world was lifted from my shoulders...

I went in into a frenzy of activity, change of diet, shows of affection, etc...

it took 4 days for me to realize that wasnt the only world on my shoulders, and I have no control over the other... in any way, shape, or form.